THIS MEMOIR IS ABOUT ME, AMERICAN MUSLIM LIVING THE DIVERSITIES OF ALL ASPECTS OF LIFE STARTING FROM HIS PARENTS TO HIMSELF LIVING LIFE AT HAND SEEING BEAUTIFUL FALSE DESIRES AT AN EARLY AGE FROM ALL THE ILLUSIONS AROUND THAT HE ALWAYS WANTED AND TRIED TO GET AS THINGS HAPPENED TO HIM AT AN EARLY AGE WHICH HE KEPT TO HIMSELF THAT HARBORED MORE ILL FEELINGS. HE STARTED STEALING MORE, LYING MORE, BEING SNEAKY, QUIETLY JEALOUS, CONNIVING, QUIETLY HATEFUL TO HIMSELF AND THE PEOPLE AROUND HIM, HE STARTED SKIPPING SCHOOL, SELLING DRUGS, BEING DISRESPECTFUL, LIVING LIFE IN JAIL THAT LED TO PRISON TO COMING HOME THINKING HE COULD DO IT BETTER THAN HE DID THE LAST TIME WITH THE PERKS OF THE DRUG GAME; MONEY, GANG VIOLENCE, MALICIOUS ASSAULTS, SEXUAL ENCOUNTERS, A LOT OF CRIES, IF'S, I'S AND WHY'S, MYSTERIOUS FACTS YOU WOULD THINK ONE WAY BUT IT'S ANOTHER (MYSTERIES), A LOT OF DAM IF I DO DAM IF I DON'T, ROBBERIES WITH SPECULATIONS, RELATIONSHIP GOALS WITH ITS DOWNFALLS, BEING HOMELESS, SNITCHES (RATS), GETTING SENTENCED TO STATE AND FEDERAL PRISON TIME WHILE LIVING LIFE IN THE DEADLY PANDEMIC, LIVING AND BEING AROUND ALL DEMOGRAPHICS OF LIFE, SOME ACHIEVEMENTS AND DOWN FALLS, FACTUAL STATEMENTS FROM INMATES BEHIND THESE PRISON WALLS AND JUST ME STRIVING TO LIVE THE LIFE OF ISLAM (BEING A MUSLIM) ALSO A LEARNING LESSON FOR THOSE THAT TAKE HEED! ISLAM IS PERFECT I'M NOT , TALKING TO YOU DON'T JUDGE ME. -AL-JANEER WALLER