If I Had Said Beauty, Tami Haaland's fourth collection of poetry, is dedicated to "known and unknown" ancestors. It explores the possible narratives and distant origins of what lies behind a sense of self--including recent and ancient DNA, recessive and dominant traits, mitochondrial underpinnings, and an intricate microbiome. Luminous and spare, the poems seek to unravel and speculate, document and lament what happens in a life and what might have been. While probing for definition in the mysteries of deep time, the poems are nevertheless grounded in encounters with wild and domestic life, intimate moments of loss and family connection, all of which intertwine to expand the meaning of "autobiography."