Based on a true story, this is a literary exploration of a lesbian coming-of-age, LGBTQ+ identity, consent, conversion therapy trauma, and queer survival. Told in mixed free-form poetry and prose vignettes, this novel follows a young sapphic woman's experience of coming out, psychiatric conversion therapy, and the decade-long trauma she survived. It is a story about a lesbian's life where substance use and casual intimacy became survival tools, and rage became language as she struggled to overcome conversion trauma. She eventually learns there is no cure for queer, conversion cannot erase desire, and the failure was not hers. She survived conversion. She did not survive unchanged. Perfect for readers of contemporary LGBTQ+ literature, poetic memoirs, hybrid narratives, and stories of addiction and trauma recovery.