A debut poetry collection written over the course of 5 years- from the ages 16 to 21- by a trans man coming of age while trying to balance trauma, dysphoria, and the hope that someday things will get better. From the internal struggle of growing up queer and religious, to the rage at being young in a body that is already falling apart, these poems serve as a sort of extended therapy session. Sometimes overdramatic, often tragic, and unflinchingly honest, this collection is a look into the soul of the author as he grows into a young man.