I have now been dominating my husband in a Female Led Relationship for over two decades. I have evolved a great deal in that time; and in the last two years, my evolution has accelerated to place me at the extreme end of the spectrum of pitiless and cruel excesses. The reasons for the biggest step-change in my attitude and excesses that amounted to an epiphany, are simple but have been devastating for him. He is no spring chicken and I want to make sure of two things before he is simply too old. Firstly, that my experiences of perverse pleasures and self-indulgent sensations arising from having no guilt, pity or sympathy for him, are maximised, and secondly, because this is a symbiotic relationship. He gets to feel, at a maximum intensity, those feelings of being helplessly in the power of a woman with a mean streak, that he so irrationally needs. It works for both of us, but he has to suffer many endurances in order for my twin objectives to be achieved, and the contents of this journal certainly prove that they are being achieved. I have theorised and received overwhelming support that the irrational side of such men must actually regret at least a little what they wished for, for the irrational side of them to be truly content. I think it is safe to say, my husband-slave’s rational side regrets what he wished for. (But there is no doubt that his irrational side is utterly content, and it is clear that he is content overall.) I adore my husband and spend an amount of very enjoyable vanilla time with him as he is wonderful vanilla company. BUT, and it is a big BUT, I consider him 24/7/365 as my human porn, my body slave and my chore slave. He is my human porn because he has been reduced to zero sex life of any kind for himself, yet I use him as human porn by cruelly inflicting endurances on him that bring me quickly to many, many, many, massive orgasms, and also provide a deep sense of superior contentment, that I have a thing I own, that I can use and abuse at my whim. I have total power, by asking one simple question of him and I ask it often. “Do want domination my